Daddy

You hide behind your pile of money
Your houses and big screen tv
But all you touch has turned to shit
So tell me, daddy, was it worth it?

You sidestep us like we’re not here
Although our eyes are filled with tears
Your dreams came true at any cost
Who cares how many lives were lost

We never were quite real to you
And showing love was a taboo
The only “love” I ever felt
Was given by you with the strike of your belt

I should suck you dry to get you back
And follow the lead set by the rest of the pack
But that won’t stop the burn I feel
That you still don’t know what’s for real

One day I hope you reach for me
And I’m so stupid I’ll be happy
At least I know my heart is true
Even though I had a father like you

Copyright(C)2006
Composed by
Cindy

No Self-Esteem

I didn’t understand the possibilities of youth
Searching for answers
Never finding the truth
Of whom I was or wanted to be

Pushed by my peers and insecure
No support at home
Made me afraid and unsure
I never saw what was inside of me

Looking for affection from any man or boy
I threw myself at anyone
A volunteer sex toy
No self esteem to hold me back

I’d never want to replay those years
There was no teenage good life
Only tremendous fears
That I’d never make adulthood in one piece

And did I really?

Copyright(C)2006
Composed by
Cindy

The Coast

I’m in the place that I love best
A speeding car that’s heading west
My thoughts are racing faster than the wheels
And though I was much younger then
My head is in “remember when”
Coz the coast will always feel like home to me

Well nothing bad ever happened there
I’m sure I never shed a tear
I can live in that denial till I die
And no one there has grown old
They still all have big hearts of gold
Coz the coast will always feel like home to me

I know that if I think too deep
I’ll remember the road there was rocky and steep
And nothing really was as great as it appeared
But I can still hold tight to dreams
Even if they are falling apart at the seams
Coz the coast will always feel like home to me

I’m in the place that I love best
A speeding car that’s heading west
With the nasty prairie memories far behind
He told me that he wouldn’t come
Coz it’s myself I’m running from…
But the coast will always feel like home to me

Copyright(C)2006
Composed by
Cindy

The Blues

Oh god, take these blues away
Help me get thru another day
I’m tired of fighting to find my way
Oh god, take these blues away

Trapped in a cell of my own creation
A victim of an over active imagination
Put on earth for eternal damnation
Oh god, take these blues away

I’m sorry I can’t please you all
Snap out of it when you give me the call
All I see is black when I look down the hall
Oh god, take these blues away

Our spirits have flown away from us
But we don’t want to make a fuss
So people won’t think less of us
Oh god, take these blues away.

To all of us who suffer this fate
We are brave and even tho we think it’s too late
If we can only love ourselves instead of hate
Maybe god can take our blues away

Copyright(C)2006
Composed by
Cindy